Why I Started A Yoga Studio At The Worst Possible Time.

I couldn’t think of a great title for this piece, hopefully you, the reader, isn’t a “judge a blog piece by the title” kind of person. I guess I’m thinning out the herd.

I recently embarked on a grand adventure. I started a yoga/movement studio and I have never been more scared, energized and happier. I had wanted to have a space to offer “self-care” type activities for quite a long time. Looking back in my journal I had written about opening a boutique training studio three years ago.

So, you ask… do I believe in manifesting your own reality? That’s a hard yes. 

It was the absolute wrong time in my life for many reasons. I was really developing a good writing career when all of my electronics either broke or malfunctioned a few months prior which meant I had lost all of the amazing interviews I had just done. The ceiling in my apartment was leaking, and my landlord wasn’t fixing it until it was flooding my bathroom…he then just tore the ceiling down and left a gapping hole. I was looking to move to a better apartment, I had only a part-time job, my mother had just suffered a stroke and my grandmother was needing help after leaving the hospital from open heart surgery.

There was a LOT going on. Maslow’s hierarchy of needs was crumbling around me, but I had a strange sense that there would NEVER be a “right” time and that perhaps…surrounded by the chaos it was actually the perfect time. So, like in some kind of freakish twilight zone I searched for an affordable space and opened within 2 months of deciding to go for it.

I used a lot of my savings and created a space that would be inclusive of everyone, this meant having a sliding scale for pricing so that individuals on social assistance, ODSP, or in recovery could afford to take regular classes. It honestly felt good and made me feel alive to be doing something productive. It took 2 weeks to paint the entire studio, get the equipment needed and put some workshops together for the first week.

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We are now going into our third week open, so still very new. We already have a lot of regular people coming in to enjoy the classes and it has been so wonderful to see a tribe forming before my eyes of supportive, enthusiastic people wanting to experience yoga and movement to heal themselves AND live those practices off the mat as well.

We now have Zumba, Kickboxing, Euphoric and Bootcamp.

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My manifested dream is unfolding before my eyes… and today I really thought about how the timing was COMPLETELY off. How sometimes you just need to take one of the biggest risks of your life amongst the chaos, because if you’re not willing to take a risk then…when will you be?

My mom has made a full recovery, my grandmother is getting stronger and stronger each day, I still don’t own a laptop or voice recorder again yet but eventually I will and I will continue to write, AND I’m moving in June to a better apartment.

The struggle is here still as I juggle running a business with working a job, and running a business means trying to earn an actual income in the first year.

Honestly though, I have never felt more free or more focused…or more living in my “purpose” as I do when I help others feel good… and then of course write about it.

 

I hope you follow along on this journey with me because I will be sharing my take on entrepreneurship, yoga and self-care.

 

Remember: you are loved, you are worthy, you are blessed.

 

Carlee. xo 

 

Not Letting Your Anxiety F*ck You Over & Getting The Courage To SPEAK UP!

Anxiety is the unwelcomed and uninvited third wheel in every one of my relationships. It doesn’t matter if I’m with friends, family, my lover or my co-workers, there it is… always making me second guess myself. I have mastered the art of being socially awkward, and I always carry a book in my bag so I can pull it out and hide my face in it, avoiding any possible social interaction.

Anxiety has this weird way of making you think you have all these other problems. Before I was diagnosed with anxiety I didn’t even know it could present itself as physical symptoms. Stomach aches, headaches, shallow breathing, panic attacks that feel like heart attacks, irritability and nit picking, are just a few manifestations of anxiety. Normal chores like grocery shopping become overwhelming; when I get to the cash register my throat begins to feel like I’m choking and I pull my debit card out in advance so I don’t waste the cashier’s time.

Friendships are complicated and life becomes this daily fight for survival against an invisible enemy. Anxiety has a way of making you stay home whenever a friend has asked you out to lunch. Anxiety has single handedly convinced me that I am legitimately dying on numerous occasions, only to realize that it’s my own mind playing tricks on me.

If anxiety were a person it would be the snarky teenage girl who likes to screw with people’s emotions, just because she can. I started thinking about how many times my anxiety had actually screwed me over and how I had let it stop me from trying some really cool things, and potentially meeting some really interesting people. When is enough, enough?

I can’t speak for anyone else, but I feel like the more each one of us that suffers from anxiety continues to suffer in silence, standing there feeling like you can’t breath while the cashier asks you if you want a bag, then we will never find the community we so desperately need. My anxiety seems to lessen when I “call the bitch out” for what it is. When I’m able recognize my symptoms as being anxiety and work through it, I feel like I can function. It’s only when I don’t recognize it or choose not too that my symptoms become unbearable, and I find myself in the emergency room telling a nice newly graduated doctor that I’m dying, “I know it”.

Speaking up about anxiety means having no shame in the fact that it’s real and believe it or not a HUGE percentage of everyone around us suffers from some level of it. Once we start actually talking about it without the fear of judgement, we can connect and start to heal, which totally sounds awesome.

Getting the courage to speak up for yourself under any circumstance is tough if you suffer from “the invisible enemy”. Saying the word “No” takes some serious effort. It’s not easy, but standing up for yourself while consumed with anxiety is possible. Chances are there are people out there that will take advantage of the fact that you have a hard time saying no, but think about how good it’s going to feel when they can’t do that anymore.

For all of the times we’ve had our hearts start beating out of our chests over making a phone call, or felt like hiding instead of answer the door…. we’re still strong and beautiful and powerful people. I’m here for you, let’s connect.

Carlee. xoxo 

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LET’S TALK CHAKRAS, the magic little energy centres that live within you (how f*cking cool)

I fell in love with the concept of chakras a few years ago and invested in the Complete Book Of Chakras, a 1005 page book that literally covers everything.

EV-ER-Y-THING. 

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What are chakras you ask?

They are worlds within worlds. (ooooh awwww) They are energy bodies that both absorb and extract energy and emotion.

Whenever I describe energy to anyone I use the example of being with two different types of people. The first is someone who leaves you feeling drained, exhausted and miserable, even if you were in a good mood prior. The second is someone who leaves you feeling energized, upbeat, motivated and happy! This is energy and how easily we can be affected by it.

We mainly talk about 7 chakras, but in fact their are tons of them all over the body.

 

(from the complete book of chakras)

Chakras perfom 3 main functions:

  1. Physical Processing: Many chakras have bodily locations, including an attachement to a nerve plexus and/or an endocrine gland, and all of them manage a certain part of the body. They can also be described as colours and sounds, which are related to the vibratory bands they both operate within and emanate, so they relate to our physical senses as well.
  2. Psychological Processing: Each chakra interacts with–and creates–psychological constructs that affect our well-being. This processing takes place in the realm of beliefs and feelings.
  3. Spiritual Processing: Each chakra contributes to our spiritual well-being and development, adding a layer of consciousness to our maturing sense of self. Every chakra also serves as a channel for specific psychic ability.

Chakras Remember

Chakras not only process energy related to these three roles, but they record or hold related information as well. For instance, a chakra will recieve incoming subtle and physical information about a friend and help your physical body, psychological self, and higher self repsond to this information. Then it will remember, as a mini brain might, what conculsions you drew and how your friend reacted. Because chakras start this role as soon as the body is conceived, they can be seen as memory banks for all aspects of your life.

Chakras Are Energy Transformers

Most of the time we go about the activities of our lives generally unaware that an extraordinary alchemy is taking place within us via the chakras. You see, chakras go a step beyond the exchange of energy. They are actually energy transformers or transducers, which means they can change subtle energy into physical energy and vice versa. Think about that! This means that a chakra could hold the key to blinking a tumor out of your body or turning that wish for a sports car you’ve been harboring into a red porsche.

 

The chakras play a role in how open or closed we are in our mind, bodies and personalities. They play a role in our health and our relationships with others. They truly do have a huge responsiblity within the body!

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The 7 chakras that most people speak of are: 

The Root Chakra

Instinct, survival and sense of security.

The Sacral Chakra 

Emotion, energy and creativity.

The Solar Plexus Chakra 

Mental functioning, power, control and freedom to be yourself.

The Heart Chakra 

Love, balance and compassion.

The Throat Chakra 

Speech and self expression.

The Third-eye Chakra 

Psychic abilities, intuition and imagination.

The Crown Chakra  

Spirituality, connection, knowledge and unity.

 

Through my own journey I have come to learn that by working with the chakras you can heal grief. Once the chakras are balanced and your energy is flowing more freely you will be able to accept what is more easily and feel lighter. Chakra balancing and energy attunment isn’t new but for most people yet it isn’t as widely accepted.

If you sit still in meditation and focus on your third eye chakra you will begin to feel a sensation. The chakras are there within you, helping you, healing you and guiding you.

All the best on your journey, if you’d like to know more or have questions or want to share your own knowledge let’s connect! There will lot’s more spiritual junkie posts to come 🙂

Carlee xoxo 

 

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A MEDITATION STRICTLY FOR HUSTLERS

HEY 🙂

This is a different kind of meditation…in fact it is an awesome badass meditation for the hustlers, the team builders, the passionate movers and shakers of the world.

It’s funny, it’s calming and it’ll get you in the right frame of mind for a Monday morning.

Grab your coffee & let’s get shit done.

Let me know how you feel & what you’d love to meditate on next.

Carlee. xoxo 

 

Hustle…hustle…hustle. LOL 

 

 

YOUR MONTHLY GODDESS HOROSCOPE SEPTEMBER 2018

Hey girl,

September is an awesome month that brings with it vibes of serious change. Summer turns to fall, the moons energy is magical as September 9th is the New Moon that comes with lots of new beginnings.

Aries March 21 – April 19: 

Collaboration is key this month. Don’t stress if you’re feeling overwhelmed, it’s time to take a step back and simple…breath. Asking for help isn’t a weakness, it’s a strength, and it may be just what you need this September. Strong emotions may surface such as fear, anger or jealousy. Acknowledge that these emotions are stemming from the first, fear. Don’t let fear guide your decision making and stop you from doing something beautiful. Accept your fear but take a step forward anyway, you deserve it.

Taurus April 20 – May 20: 

Less is more this month for Taurus as you discover a deeper understanding of who you are. As the seasons change it is a month of shedding everything that no longer serves you. The beginning of the month will be rocky and you may have experienced a set back. Don’t worry as you steady yourself out and move forward “bull-headed” you will succeed. Practicing minimalism this month will serve you well, donate things that you no longer need and make room for the new gifts coming into your life. As you begin to shed a new you will form creating deeper longer lasting connections and relationships.

Gemini May 21 – June 21: 

This month you seem fearless! In reality you are ignoring your fears and finding a newly charged romance, lasting or fleeting, that’s for you to decide. As the twin star baby you are dynamic. This month means you’re not putting up with anyone’s shit. Why should you? Being fearless shows itself this month by you becoming extra open, honest and vulnerable (in a good way), allowing others to see a side of you they normally don’t. Show this side of yourself more and others will be drawn to your silly charm.

Cancer June 22 – July 22:

Great things are coming together for you! Ideas that have been on your mind for the last few months are starting to materialize, you’re setting goals and building something for yourself. Slow and steady wins the race this month as it is the best time for building a solid foundation of success. Don’t run before you can walk, a detailed list of goals this month will be your best-friend. If you take your time in building a solid foundation, nothing will be able to take you down in the months to come. In all areas of your life put one foot in front of the other, grow from the bottom up, in love and in business and success will be yours.

Leo July 23 – Aug 22: 

A strong warning this month for Leo, do not let jealousy take over this month and guide your decision making. What something is, is often not what it appears to be. What people seem to have, may not be fancy, it may in reality be a lot of debt. List the things that you can be grateful in your own life. In moments of resentment take time to be still, quiet your mind, connect with your heart and come back to your own personal path. You know where you need to be and you know where you’re going. Stay true to your own nature and September can be a month of peace instead a month of “keeping up with the Jones’ ”

Virgo Aug 23 – Sept 22: 

You’ve totally got this! Virgo, this month is all about you taking charge and owning YOU. September brings a fierce energy that allows you to be the boss, leader, decision maker and kick-ass chick you are. Your life is YOUR LIFE and this month you take full ownership. Say no when you feel like it and yes when you can. Your power comes from using your intuition to guide you as you navigate the coming weeks with ease. Don’t second guess yourself, and don’t live life on anyone else’s terms but your own. You’ve known the answers all along…now it’s time to act on them.

Libra Sept 23 – Oct 22: 

Be careful of playing the role of “personal therapist” to friends and family this month and remember that in order to be stress free, you first need to focus on yourself. Taking on too much of other people’s emotions can be debilitating and cause negative emotional and physical side affects. Take this month to sort out just what your relationships need, tough love may be the right approach…even if it’s just to save your own sanity. In order to have the balance your sign desires you’ll need to even out the scales once again by giving a few members of your inner circle a reality check, in the nicest way possible.

Scorpio Oct 23 – Nov 21: 

Scorpios come with their earned loyalty and distinctive strike. Many don’t realize though that underneath a Scorpios tough exterior lies an inner soft side that runs deep. If you’ve been guarded for a while you may start to feel like isolating. There’s nothing wrong with taking time for yourself, but remember, there are people in your life who care about you and before you take time for yourself, let them know. Not only will it mean the world to them, it will also open you up to a deeper level of communication, honesty and connection.

Sagittarius Nov 22 – Dec 21: 

You distinctly know who you can and cannot trust. Let’s get real, people can be drama. There’s no need to get caught up in office politics. Show up, be a boss, do you and leave happy. Let the drama queens get to pre-occupied to cash in on opportunity. Keep your eyes wide open and you’ll be able to receive the rewards that come along with observation. Too much talk will drag you down, your self-worth is no one else’s but yours. Fresh fruit will also help you mid September.

Capricorn Dec 22 – Jan 19: 

September is all about self-care for the Capricorn. You’ve learned the value of self-care this past year and now it’s time to truly incorporate what you’ve learned into your daily life. Staying in the now will keep you grounded, humble and self-aware as you make your way through this month. When you find yourself distracted or stressed out acknowledge the actions you personally took to put yourself there. Success is important to the Capricorn, but don’t get so focused on the end goal that you miss the entire game.

Aquarius Jan 20 – Feb 18: 

In order to be heard by others this month you must stop acting out of emotion and start truly communicating what it is you need from others. Generally, people won’t know what it is you need until you tell them. This is the month of “ask and you shall receive” Aquarius, so ask away, you might be pleasantly surprised. Progress not perfection is the key.

Pisces Feb 19 – March 20: 

Intention is the big thing for Pisces this September. Your intention will manifest itself in all areas of your life, what you choose to vibe with is important. Honor the space in your heart that knows where your emotions live, your vibe attracts your tribe. If you aren’t attracting people, places or things into your life that truly serve you, it’s time to switch up your intentions. Get real with yourself and what your looking for. Once your balanced the end of the month will bring with it an awesome new gift.

 

Love you all, you astrology loving spiritual junkies.

See you on instagram,

Carlee xoxo. 

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